Think? think again

I probably need to be sent to anger management class. Gila dah aku ni agaknya. I can’t control my feelings. I should probably be crying after being scolded, but i didn’t, i felt angry. Selagi aku tak tumbuk preceptor aku, aku rasa tak puas hatiiiiiiiiii…Gile3x..

You have to think. Think. think. . think. thiink. think. think. think. think. think. think. think. think. think. think, before you do something, thats good thinking, think, thong, theng.. think think think think think think think think  think think think think think think. Bape kali mau cakap think? Aku sampai sakit jiwa dengar perkataan tu and i felt really intimidated, he made me feel as if don’t use my brain at all

If you are thinking too much, you might forget to be rational….Thinking is fine, but  remember, God also gives you the ability to feel.

Spinning wheel

People sees me as someone with zero problems. Am i that good actress?

Act strong, keep going.
dulu masa aku muda-muda, aku selalu rasa yang aku tak ada apa-apa kebolehan. Sebab aku terpengaruh dengan cerita-cerita kat tivi, aku rasa aku kurang kemahiran. Aku tak tahu menjahit, aku tak tahu berniaga di pasar malam, tak pernah juga berjual di gerai malam-malam, tak berkeboleh bermain apa jua alat muzik, memasak tak reti, bersosial lingkup. Kadang-kadang aku envy orang yang hidup susah, yes, i did cos they learn so much, they know how this world works, how wheel spins. I’m just about to experience that and i can’t stop whining. Ya Allah, forgive me. Gimme strength so that i can face this and learn from it. Hidup tak seindah mimpi. Itu pun kalau bermimpi indah, kalau mimpi yang indah, apakan lagi hidup ini. I will try to be strong.

ranting

What an empty life. But thats ok, its going to be over soon.
Aku selalu tertanya-tanya, aku ke yang tak cuba, aku ke yang berkira or they are just too much. Aku pon tak tau, tapi aku rasa aku tak macam tu. Kalau berkawan, you have to give and take. Thats the basic principle. Bende ni applies to nearly everything. So, untuk give and take aku rase kene ade common sense. Sometimes, i think i’m being used. Aku berkira sangat ke? Buat je la, tolong je la orang. Takyah nak kesah sangat. Tapi, aku rase kalau aku keep tolong orang, aku setelkan semua bende, aku ni, aku tu. I have had enough. Aku rasa tak adil. I don’t wanna feel this way, aku nak tolong or buat something dengan rasa ikhlas cos that how i was. Tapi, bila aku je kene buat/ setelkan semua bende, i can’t help but feel annoyed. Cos I’m a human

ok i feel bad writing this.

Thank You Allah

i am so happy. So happy. So happy. I passed my exam. So happy that my heart can’t stop smiling.
Thought i should share it to the world by writing it here, cos there is no one around that i can talk to

Alhamdulillah.